For those of you who saw Big Love last week, you’ll understand why I was so sore walking into the studio today. Last week I made a lot of headway on my dance. I ruthlessly choreographed until my body simply couldn’t do more. Today I walked in and my body was already at the point of giving up, still aching from tossing myself all about the stage. And so I had a dilemma: how do I meet my impending deadline without hurting myself? I decided I would mark through those last few counts of the song.
Now I have an idea of what I’ll be doing. But what I’m struggling with still is that last week I had a whole mess of ideas, but little attention to detail. I had next to no clue as to exactly which sound of the drum means that I should do which movement. The only way that I could figure that out was to dance and dance and dance. But since my knees and arms won’t find dancing agreeable today, I’m left in an awkward limbo. I’m at a stage now where I need more stagnancy in what I’m doing. Being without it is leaving me feeling uneasy. I know that I’ll meet my deadline and that everything will be fine. I just can’t shake the feeling.