After my big, or to me what seemed big, assignment leading a class, things seemed to have calmed down. Perhaps it was just me, but it appeared that after the students put heavy thought into this assignment, they were ready to continue their normal class schedule, which was perfectly fine. I believe that after I lead this one activity, I was fully comfortable with the entire class because I had broken a barrier between just an observer in the class and being a true member of the class.
As I am sitting in these classes, I visualize myself a few years older, and if the actual teacher was not there, but instead I was there. I see myself having the full attention of the students every single day. It is honestly quite intimidating, I see everyone’s face as they interact and react to the teacher and I wonder how it will be for me. Granted, I have done this a few times already, but they were more like guest appearances. I have a very good sense of what it is like, but I can’t quite feel the same emotion Teacher Lisa has knowing the students look up to her daily to give them knowledge. I can’t quite grasp the feeling of knowing that everything I do and say, these kids will remember them and affect a lot of things, grades, emotions, actions. However, I do understand these are things I need to be observant in the future and know that I can’t disregard these things.
Watching T. Lisa in the classroom has been immensely invigorating. I am learning how each student has a different way to be communicated with and that there are special bonds with each student that are always present. Of course, she does talk to the group as a whole for going over topics. I see that there is definite trust between her and the students, and that is something that she tells me she relies on. Going outside of the classroom, and into my classes, I have been taking notes in two different ways. Of course I take actual notes in my classes to write down content, it’s just common sense. On the other side, I take mental notes of the teacher’s style for each class I have. This idea came from my mentor, T. Pat, and it is definitely giving me new perspective on things. I see how each teacher has their personality and I can reflect on it on my style, or the style I want to have. I have seen clear and concise teachers who say what they mean and mean what they say, and have also seen free flowing teachers who explain things in creative and artistic ways. Of course, there are mixes of all these traits, and I am able to see which ones I like most.
One thing that solidified my observation of the traits in T. Lisa and others is by reading an article about teacher personalities in the classroom. It showed me what teachers used certain characteristics more in their style and how it works for them. I am constantly learning something new from this experience, and like my grandfather would say, “If you go a day without learning anything, then it’s a waste of a day.” I certainly don’t feel my days in this class are a waste.